Once again, dear BEDA, I almost forgot about you.

GAH!

I'm so not used to this whole blogging thing. I've definitely gotten to the point where I feel like I've bitten off way more than I can chew, and in all honesty, I think the cause of most of my stress is from the rounds contest I'm in. This script is really driving me crazy. I've written and re-written it with completely different storylines, but with only one day left, I have to really stick with the one I've got going now. While I like how it's going, I'm still not one hundred percent sure about the direction that I want to take it in, and only being able to convey the full story in 5 scenes or less is bothering me. There's so much that I want to do with it but can't and just... guh.

We're covering the Urban Folk Revival in American Music today, and I'm so afraid that I'm coming across as a huge know-it-all, because that is a huge chunk of what I listen to. I mean, Joan Baez, Bob Dylan, Pete Seeger, etc. I'm absolutely in love with them all. I did manage to make a comparison between Bob Dylan and System of a Down, which my professor absolutely loved. That made me happy.

Today was, if possible, even more boring than yesterday. I really need to start making things exciting if I have any hope of actually going through with this thing all month. I mean, I had some really good laughs today, telling Pikachu (Kyle) about the underwear incident at work on Saturday, and completely geeked out with CVT about The Mountain Goats and Mumford and Sons and so much other music.

Cassandra Clare's City of Fallen Angels came out today, but, of course, being the poor college student that I am, I haven't bought it yet which is bugging the hell out of me. I mean, guh, I still owe another $1,ooo+ to my college before they'll let me graduate or anything, and we just don't have the money for it. While that may not seem like a lot of money to some people, but my family's financial situation is just not good right now. I'm not looking for pity, and I'm deliberately going against what my entire family has told me about not letting myself stress out about the money situation when there's nothing I can do about it, but I'm just so scared. Between my grandfather's cancer, my mom's back issues, all of the transfer application fees that I have to pay and everything else, it's just really hard for me to not totally drive myself up the wall with it.

I almost just want to give up all of my money for the LeakyCon fund and tell my mom to put it toward at least one bill. I mean, it's only like $200, which is hardly anything, but I feel like shit because I don't think I'm helping enough around the house.

God...

I feel so whiney.

I'm deleting this as soon as BEDA is over.